This is a message to say sorry.
I’m sorry for being me, a misguided fool who pretends to be cool while underneath I am filled with lies and deceit.
I throw an image of myself out to the world, while some like it and some hate it, it’s not me at all, so why should I care?
Why should I care when these people stare, they aren’t looking me, just a creative choice with opinions it feels it needs to voice.
I may be misunderstood, but no one misunderstands me more than I do.
The chances I blew, the times I flew off the handle for really no reason at all.
The times I feel lowest is when I know I’ve hurt someone close because I am so engrossed in my own pain and suffering I can’t see theirs and finally when my apology is prepared, they’ve gone.
I know this is wrong and if I could help it I would.
I am misunderstood.
I try to make amends but know deep down it will happen again, that feeling I get deep down, that attitude to everyone around,
That stupid text I send, just to start a fight, it’s time to stop pretending everything’s alright.