Misunderstood Identity

This is a message to say sorry.

I’m sorry for being me, a misguided fool who pretends to be cool while underneath I am filled with lies and deceit.

I throw an image of myself out to the world, while some like it and some hate it, it’s not me at all, so why should I care?

Why should I care when these people stare, they aren’t looking me, just a creative choice with opinions it feels it needs to voice.

I may be misunderstood, but no one misunderstands me more than I do.

The chances I blew, the times I flew off the handle for really no reason at all.

The times I feel lowest is when I know I’ve hurt someone close because I am so engrossed in my own pain and suffering I can’t see theirs and finally when my apology is prepared, they’ve gone.

I know this is wrong and if I could help it I would.

I am misunderstood.

I try to make amends but know deep down it will happen again, that feeling I get deep down, that attitude to everyone around,

That stupid text I send, just to start a fight, it’s time to stop pretending everything’s alright.

I know I need some sort of help and this isn’t a cry or a plea, my cries for help are nasty and cut deep, not wanting you to weep but to simply see this isn’t me, just another misunderstood identity.

Advertisements

Thanks for the comment

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s