I’m struggling today. Struggling to be motivated, positive, active, all of the buzz words. I don’t know why I think I am just about burnt out. I work hard as much as I can, work hard on every single piece of work that I put out into the world. I am not saying they are perfect but they all have my heart and soul in them. That doesn’t seem to matter though.
I will continue to try but not today, fuck today, I can’t be bothered to try today. I have tried for ages now and it doesn’t seem to have a changed a fucking thing so why bother today? I’ll try again tomorrow, today though I am going to go and read and relax and do other stuff than sit in front of a fucking computer. The freelance life is great, you can go anywhere in the world… and sit in front of a fucking computer.
I feel shit, I always do when I try really hard to get towards a goal only to find nothing has changed and I am back to square one.