I’ve been sitting here for nearly 24 hours trying to figure out how to send a text message. A 24 year old spending 24 hours of his life trying to send a text message? Yep, you read that right. This text message is a hard one to write, a hard one to type and a hard one to send. What do I say? How do I say it? How do you write a text message to someone you used to be interment with but is now a simple number on your phone? This person is the person that you saw your future with, otherwise you wouldn’t have been with them, this person was the person you dreamt about even if only for a short while, this person was a person who you loved. The number on my phone and the person behind it, didn’t do anything wrong to me, the problems we faced were mine and mine only, a fact I couldn’t admit to for a while.

I am not the same person I was back then. Ive become stronger, more confident, more passionate, more hard working than ever before and this is due to finding hope and believing in myself, believing I can achieve what I want, but how do you convey that to the number on the screen without sounding like a fool? Without sounding like your pretending and your crumbling inside? Without sounding like your exaggerating?

I sit as I write this, on my bed, its now been 24 hours and 10 minutes since that fateful message of ‘hi how are you doing?’ Came through, and the number on my phone stills waits for a reply…


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